:: July 7, 2003 ::
Well, new layout. I get bored easily and I felt like a change, like I said before. And I like it. I don't know about my viewers, but I'm happy with it :) Go team!
My father decided to take a week-long trip to Minesota with my stepmom to see her parents, so I don't have to work this week :) And I'm not worried because my dad said that money wasn't an issue for Rowe. I was suprised :-O <---- see? that's me being suprised!
Nothing is up. Aaron found success when I recomended Clearasil Vanishing Cream evidently. That made me feel good that it worked. Go team Aaron's face, congrats!
Yeah, like I said nothing big is going on. But the day is young.
Posted by Melissa | 1:20 PM |
:: July 5, 2003 ::
Happy Belated Independence Day!! Yo, did you hear about the Constitutuion Center thing?? Is it bad if I laughed heartily when I saw the tape of the frame falling? And, is it bad that I laughed even harder when the newscaster said that John Street suffered minor injories? I'm thinking "yeah" for both.
Ugh, I am bored. Oh, I want to thank Sage, Aaron, Ryan, and Chad for a deck Fourth of July. Even if Chad doesn't read this. But that's okay. Anyway, when I said that I was happy that you all were my friends I was serious. You all are some of the best guy friends I have. Plus Gabe, but his bitch ass was in Georgia so what was I supposed to do?
I've concluded this: men friends are cooler (don't hate) than womyn friends. No offense girlies, please you all are very, very awesome. But this is why guy friends are cooler: Mainly because they don't hold grudges and drag stupid things out forever and ever. Guys are like "Yeah sure, it's cool, don't worry about it" but they get angry, drag things out, and/or hold grudges when those things are needed. If I make one of my womyn friends angry, I have to write stupid notes to know what's up or I have to talk to a friend who will talk to my angry womyn friend for me. And they just avoid/ignore me anyway. It's all so complicated!! I think girls really do keep everything at bay when in a group with guys. But the guys make it fun. I like being the only girl when hanging out with guys. I have much more fun with all guys then when I'm with a group of just girls or both sexes. It's always been like that for me, and I was the biggest tomboy, lemme tell ya. I always like to surround myself with male friends. But I love my womyn friends too. There are times when the various testosterone levels overcome my estrogen level and that's when I need womyn friends to hang out with. Once again, girls please don't hate :) kthnx!
I think I'ma go to the mall for some Rowe clothes and shtuff. I dunno. I'm really bored and I want to get out of mi casa.
I already want to change my layout. Heh heh, silly me :)
Posted by Melissa | 3:53 PM |
Well, do I have a story to tell you all!!
Tonight around 5 o' clock I head to the mall to do my Rowe shopping. I wanted NOeL to come but I realized I needed some me time, so it was good. I bought 4 tank tops, The Emperor's New Groove on DVD, some earrings, and some Victoria Secret underwear (oo la la!!)
It was my very first time in Victoria Secret and I must go in more often. I've always wanted to go in, but I've been very scared/embarrassed to. But I duvs it there! The next time I go, I think, just for fun I'll try on the honeymoon wear, if you know what I'm saying, it looks like fun. But, I got blue/yellow striped, navy blue, rose print, grey/white striped, and pink/blue/yellow striped string bikini underwear. Victoria Secret underwear is made in Israel. Who knew?? I need some bras but I was NOT in a bra shopping mood at all. Usually I am. Bra shopping makes me feel dead sexaay....just kidding.
Then I help Laura Stackhouse and Kim Thurman find an earring thing. It was nice to run into them. Nice folks.
So! My adventure. Well, basically what happened was that I took the wrong Route 22 bus. Instead of it going towards my home, it went the opposite way to Warrington. I was about ready to cry b/c my sister Gretta was home alone and the bus driver told me I wouldn't get home until 9:30ish when I told Gretta I'd be home no later than 7:30. Anyway, the bus driver parked his bus at the last stop to eat his Burger King dinner. So, I got off the bus to find a pay phone in the retirement home across the street. But when I got there, the doors were locked, so I went to look for someone with a cell phone. I ran into a group of three elderly people. I explained what had happened, but they told me none of them had one. But the man Richard gave me his keys to unlock the front door to get to the payphone. One of the women offered to show me and she took my hand and led me through the building and she held my hand the entire time. I loved her to bits. She had a sweet and calming voice, which was what I needed at that point and I think she saw I was near tears. Then she took me through the laundry room to the change making machine, just incase the phones ate my money. I thanked her profusely and then I called home, apologized to Gretta, made sure she was alright, told her I loved her and got back on the bus. It was a really nice bus ride. I really like long bus rides now. I think I'll take the 22 to Warrington more often. And maybe visit the lady who helped me tonight :)
On the bus I realized that African Americans are really beautiful people. I was the only caucasian in a full bus and that was cool. I looked at all the people on the bus and I noticed that generally black people have a really nice facial structure and they have full lips and I just think that their profiles are really cool. And I've always liked their skin color. It comes in so many different shades. I really like people whose skin is like a licorice color. Licorice is so brown that it looks black (I think from what I've seen.) Some kid at school has skin like that. It's awesome. Sorry, it was just something I thought and thought I should explain. Nevermind.
So that was my trip. It was quite relaxing after I called home :)
Good night everyone!
Posted by Melissa | 9:58 PM |
:: July 1, 2003 ::
Happy 1st of July, everyone :) But it makes me sad. Two months or so until school. Poo poo. Erm...
Yeah, so today at work I made Gabe a bracelet and Alison a hemp necklace and I need to send them out. I also spent a loooot of time with Erika, my cousin's daughter. Now, to give you an idea of what kind of kid she's like you'd have to read the Eloise books. Erika IS Eloise. Seriously, she's the sweetest, smartest, most imaginative five year old I've ever met. I was just like her when I was growing up. My imagination was so crazy you'd think my parents were feeding me pot brownies for afternoon snack. Anyway, she was asking me about Sage. "What's his first name?", "What's his last name?", "What's his second name?", "Does he have China black hair?" (that one took me a little by suprise), "What's your sweetheart name for him?" When it came to that question, I said, "You mean like muffin or something? Oh, I don't have one for him." She was upset about that. She said, "What?! I'll think of some for you." So, I took out a piece of paper and began to write. This is what we came up with:
Butterfly, Staple, Tooby, Looby, Ruby, Scooby, Potty, Marshmallow, Shiny Teeth, Froggy, Watchy, Sicky, Mickey, Loopy, Kitty, Titty (?!?!?), Smitty, Litty, Litter box, Bracelet, Scissors, Lipstick, Sixsaba, Titaba, Tooty-pop, Chooty-pop, Ice-pop, Toobity-pop, Looby-pop, Belt, Kelt, Pelt, Smelt, Snelt, Snow, Rope, Robe, Toby, Foby, Moby, Soap, Loapy, Coapy, Smoby, Kloby, Black teeth, Mousy, Snoby, Loby, Kroby, Smelly Armpit, Stobe, Shoby, Kropytopy, Stinky, Ear flops, Feet flops, Lolly-pop, Stoopy, Koopy, Hairy, Spiky, Spooky, Bald, Whoopy-doo, Stooparoo, Blankey, Glasses, Black and White, La La La La, and Pumpkin.
Not necessarily fitting, but I'd love to see her meet him and call him "Titty" or Hairy" X-D
Then she walked around the shop with her skirt over her head. Whatcha gonna do, right?
Ronnie and I (cousin's wife) talked about my stepmom's boobs and liposuction and teased her. It was good, we both needed to. Anyway...
That's all for now. Toodles.
Posted by Melissa | 5:46 PM |
:: June 30, 2003 ::
Well, I've known I'm going to Rowe since about 12:00 AM on Saturday. I called so fast! From what Sage has told me, it seems so freaking amazing!!! And it's good I'm able to get away from home. I've spent way too much time around here. I really have. I'm looking forward to meeting other people. I'm looking forward to all of it. I need summer clothes though, I have none :) Heh heh...heh. I really wanted to trick Sage though (as I've said before.) It would've been so freaking amazing, but I just couldn't do that to him. Anyway...
I got to show some of my artwork to my counselor tonight. It was great. But we talked about my dad and I. She told me how I've got sooo many oppurtunities to talk to him this summer b/c I go to and from work with him. I need to learn who he really is. He needs to learn how to talk to his teenage daughter while I learn how to talk to my father. This is going to be hard. I realized the two of us have never talked about my parents' divorce. Never. The only time we did, it was when my parents had to break the news that mommy and daddy didn't love each other anymore and that daddy was going to live somewhere else. I was five, I had no idea what the fuck was going on. My dad felt that we weren't old enough to talk about it and because he felt that way until we were about 9 years old the subject was just dropped. Never to be spoken of. But now I need to hear what he has to say. I don't like that I hate him so much. Oya boya goya bean...I can't wait until it's all over :-/
Posted by Melissa | 10:50 PM |
Ahh, the last day of June. Last day of GA for Sage. Tee hee!!!
You know, something weird happened last night. I went to get a hug. From anyone. Because I was in need of one. Anyway, my mom's sick so I thought she'd need one too. Now, when it comes to hugging mothers, I think, that the best hug is when you hug mothers while they're sitting up. That way when you hug them, your head is on your mom's chest, so you can hear her heart beat and she's stroking your hair. Those are the best hugs. So I got one of those. I don't think I realized how loooong it had been since I last got on of those and I stayed there for quite a while. I started to cry. And I'm getting a little choked up right now while writing this. My momma's a good person, and I've been needing one of those special hugs for a while. Sigh. Smile. But I have a feeling it's b/c my period is supposed to be coming any day now and I get sad like two days before they come. I don't know, those damn hormones.
Anyway, nothing on the agenda for today, except do some stuff for the counselor. I can't seem to find any other support groups except one that's once a month and at the Children's Hospital. Ergh. That's all for now. I think I'll blog about my appointment tonight. Who knows, I probably won't. Whatev.
Posted by Melissa | 8:23 AM |
:: June 29, 2003 ::
Hey, you know I guess I should've told you guys sooner that I had to change my AIM S/N b/c the account expired, right? Heh heh, umm so yeah my new S/N is MagentaLove04 so update yr buddy lists. kthnx.
Two Movies I Watched that You Must See: Yes, I saw Bonnie and Clyde with Warren Beaty and Gene Wilder (Willy of the Wonka persuasion) makes his first film appearance. Also, The Emperor's New Groove which I enjoyed very much. I'm currently in the middle of watching His Girl Friday and it's cool. It's about newspaper writers and it's a really fast pace movie, but it's good. Funny.
Anyway, last night I was able to go to Chestnut Hill and hang out with Shayna and Spencer. We had cheese fries, and talked about sex, the cult school, Shayna's and my boobs, and my stepmom's plastic surgery which may her body look very distored. She's 5'2", very skinny and had canteloupe sized breasts. It's really quite terrible. Oh well.
Oh hey, just for future reference, here's what my schedule's going to be like for the next month or so, until my sister and I decide to change it again. Okay, Monday days I'll be off, but at night is when I see my counselor. For the rest of the week, I'll be working during the day, but nights I have free. Weekends are free for me as well. So, plan accordingly, kthnx. I'm done for now, I may blog tonight, it depends if anything of importance comes up. Toodles. Oh, I finished the heves page if you're interested and put up Sanchy's link because she rawks ;)
Exactly two months until I turn 17. I hate getting older. I feel I missed childhood.
Posted by Melissa | 9:00 AM |
:: June 28, 2003 ::
I just realized that I put Wednesday's date for Thursday's post. Whoopsy. I fixed it so it'a all good.
Anyway, yesterday at work I did absolutely nothing. Except play with Erika, my cousin's daughter. I bought like 20 bucks worth of beads and string so we could make bracelets and we made a few but we spent the majority of the time playing "Indians with Beads," which basically consisted of putting beads on paper, taking them off, taking them upstairs, putting them in a toilet paper roll, and stacking video tapes and hiding cups in the corner. But then we turned into mother wolves and we took our babies on a rocketship a.k.a. the bathroom and went to outer space for a wolf costume party. Then we fell asleep in a river and went home.
But I did get to talk to Ronnie (my cousin's wife) quite a bit. We talked about my dad because she works in the office and basically, she can't stand him either. She made me realize something, though. She asked me, "Do you have any hard feelings toward your mother?" my answer was no because I had only ever heard what my father did. Ronnie reassured me that she was not sticking up for my father at all just because she thinks he's a pompous prick as well, but she wanted me to know that it wasn't all my father, it was my mother as well. But I don't know if I want to ask/talk to my mother about it. But then again, this conversation with Ronnie will probably be discussed with my counselor Monday so I guess I should know about it. I don't know, whatever.
My Agenda for this Weekend: Absolutely nothing...give me a call if you want to hang :)
This Just in: We just received word from a Mr. Corneilius Callwave that a Ms. Melissa Hevener has just been invited to Rowe's Senior High Camp and has until Monday @ 5:00 to comfirm. Melissa stated, "I'm not sure if I want to go. Yes, it's a fantastic experience and I'd love to go, but I must talk to my father about money. If my boyfriend Sage were here, I'd ask him if he'd like me to go. There was talk about a month ago he didn't want me to if I was called again, but recently he's been talking about how he really wants me to go again, so I'll have to see."
Oy vey!! What's a girl supposed to do?!?! I reeeeeally want to go!! ARGH!!!!!
Posted by Melissa | 10:23 AM |
:: June 26, 2003 ::
Well, today was my first day of work. Not bad, incredibly boooooring. Oh. my. freakin'. GOD!! So bored that I spent some time painting my fingernails black. But I actually like it. I think I'll buy some black nail polish. Anyway, blah blah blah and doodle doodle doo. I've got to go in again tomorrow, poo poo.
Anyway, yesterday my sister, my mother, and I went to IHOP. For the post-breakup pancakes b/c Noel and her "boyfriend" are on a break. Anyway, we had fun. It's another place we like to act like insane people. We left with plastic bags tied around our neck. We were The Super Plastic Bag Sisters. Our car was the "bag mobile" and our house was the "bag cave." We were sticking our hands out the window going "swoooooosh!!" But my arms started to get tired so I said, "Hey, my super arms are getting super tired so before they fall super asleep I'm going to take them out of this super window."
So that's my story, I'm going now, buh bye :)
P.S. I miss my Sage :(
Posted by Melissa | 5:19 PM |
:: June 24, 2003 ::
These last few days have been spectacular. Yesterday and today, was spent with Sage. And tomorrow will be spent with Sage as well. Before he goes to Boston, that is. But it's my fault he keeps getting grounded. Whoopsy!!
Anyway, life has been so incredibly awesome so far this summer. I've become so much more confident in myself and my looks, I'm more independent, I'm trusting my judgement now, and I'm so happy. And now that Sage and I are going out again I'm even more at ease with everything. Yes, life is good. Very, very good. But you know it's a little funny, now that I've been figuring out so much, I'm afraid my blog isn't going to be as great as before when I was more confused and upset about my world. I feel like that I'll soon be resorting to just briefly talking about my day and have no content. But we'll see. I'm sure if I really thought about it, there could be a lot of things I could still be discussing. Right? Right! I'm done writing for today. I'm really tired and really can't think. Oh! Whilst waiting for the bus to come, I saw Mr. Zucker, the midget blonde aide lady from school, and a kid from the camp I went to last year, in their cars. And when I was walking down Sage's street, one of his neighbors had some oh his friends over and one kid asked for my number. But I was like "Uh, no I'm taken thanks." And if those kids wouldn't have stopped me to talk, I would've caught the bus. But it was like de ja vu all over. It seems every time I go to that stop the second I get over the hill, I see the damn bus drive right by. Then I have to wait another 20 minutes for the next one. Damn skippy.
Posted by Melissa | 7:00 AM |
:: June 23, 2003 ::
Well, well, well, I should've known. My father did not show up to take my sister and I to work this morning. I got up at 5 instead of 4:30. But still, that's too damn early for a Monday morning, in the summer nonetheless. But I started Victor Hugo's Les Misérables while waiting. It's pretty damn good. I'll post my summer reading list soon. Anyway, I decided to hop back on, and now I'm blogging and watching Sesame Street. Go team multi-tasking. Ugh, most recent thought is Melissa wants Order of the Pheonix. I'm going to go work on my other pages. I'll see you all soon. Toodles!
Posted by Melissa | 7:00 AM |
:: June 22, 2003 ::
My first post on this BRAND NEW blog. Sure is exciting tain't it?? So, I'll cut the ribbon, The Mean Reds @ her-own-eyes.org is now open for visitation. Ahh, it sure is good to be hosted, I must say. Thank you so much Kate. I'm giving you a present, whether you likes it or not.
Yeah, so now, I'd like to complain about my layout. That damn white line. It has always happened to me. Whenever I've gone to make a layout that damn line says, "Hey, can I tag along??" while layout replies "Sure! Hop in!" Damn them. Anyway, this layout is real simple just because this is my first time using FTP and I didn't want a real complicated one. So everyone, meet Marilyn Monroe. Marilyn, meet the crew! So, expect better and cooler layouts in the months to come.
Anyway, guys I'm so excited. This has been something I've been wanting to do for years. You have no idea. But you will, I quickly explained on the about page.
I'm going to shut up now. There's a lot of pages I need to create and I have to get up @ 4:30 tomorrow. I'll see you all soon.
P.S.- My crap ass 'about' and 'heves' pages are up. I'll finish 'heves' and 'links' later. Have fun :)
Posted by Melissa | 9:22 PM |